i miss you!

yes! definitely. i miss you. i miss you like hell. too bad i could not tell this straight to your face. not even by texting you a simple message. im hurt deep inside. and it is much hurt me to know im faking myself. hard to explain. hard to describe. hard to forgive. hard to forget. everything is spinning, working like a washing machine tub that full with dirty clothes. im in a mess. u betrayed me. u betrayed my big treasure. u betrayed the trustworthy which i used to uphold until the moment u i-cant-say. where all the promises gone? where all the vow kept? u caused this biggggg sadness. i couldn't bear. i couldn't accept. i couldn't even imagine how big the mistake was. should i blame myself? who else. yes. im easy to be fooled. just like u had fooled me few times before and maybe few times after. thank you. u told me im the princess, im your precious. the fact is im a toy. u played me around. when the time comes, u'll kick on my ass and throw me away in the big green bin. simple. i kept my ego on the peak. i tried hardly. and i managed. at the same time, i killed myself softly inside. im weaken and getting weaker. from now and then, will u still be u? idk. i kept the distance between us. this boundary will keep us apart. i fake my smile and hardly keep it sweet so no one will know how im crying inside. to whom it may concern, i LOVE you a lot. if my mouth no longer able to speak this 3 little word again, no worries because i've carved yours in my heart.