si poret yg poret

hey2. cud u pls stop making up nonsense story about me? get ur ic, cek ur birth date, then compare to mine. i m just 20 occay. n u r wayyyyyyyyyyy older than me, OLD! n cud u pls mind ur own tepi kain yg sememangnya buruk n berbau n koyak. bcz i know how to mind myself. pig u. dis, for the second time. i will n still keep myself silent. bcz ko org tua. but doesnt mean i will simply forgone it. i think u need some thinner, or acid, to clean up ur blacky heart. n also a steel scourer. for a perfect cleaning. haha. u need my help? im offering. i will make sure it to be as clean and shine as tv commercial. wowee. dah la bodo. mls ku gago kau ya. xda profit n benefit. go away fucker!

a sudden impulse

suddenly rasa nak update blog tok. but im soso malassssssses. its been too long im not updating, not even visit this site. haih! a lot, i mean a lot, i've been through along this while. up n down. flat n straight. bumpy n humpy. erghh. some should be kept as sweet, n some has been trashed. now, im having a different me. plumpy (i gain my weight n i CANT reduce it. cis!), longer hair (yeah, i want dis since ages), aaaaaaa..apa lagik. isk. ngereco dah. ok2. till here. gud day peeps!

operasi.

went to see dr. faizal last nite, as asked by mommy. accompanied by arol (cz everyone goin back n huha-ing with their holiday). the cist been here for almost 7 month. hahah. gila lmk eh. gne la i can keep it. a bit weird when the doc called me by name acha. how come he know? nak mdh my uncle, xda juak. then he get his torch light, hv some check on the 'affected area', he even play with it. hahah. doc2. after have the explaination, told me that i need an operation. to get the lump out. xbole cucok jak. cz nya akan dtg blt. trrrrrrrr. as this is a minor prob, i can get it when in miri. perhaps, i'll do it. looks like unnecessary bcz it din harm me. its just affected on my look. tp who cares. but, for certain reason, myb i'll consider to get the operation. dah2. chiao!

i think.

yes. i think. it is again. shish. n i m hoping this wudn be wrong. but for sure, it effect my surrounding the most. ergh. gne la tok. gne gne gne gne gne. hah. suma solan ada. having a short talk ngn bapak tek, n i told him tha real. he is soooooo glad, and shock on my 2nd news. hahaah. sori pak kalo cepat gell. kakaka. well. i shud baa. mun dah ada dpn mata yaa. gkpun i didn ask for it. kan2. hah! hepi 18th bday to my sis! hepi hepi hepi bday to u! hope ur 18th will be blast, colorfull n vibrant. now, let me sing for u.

hepi bday to u,
hepi bday to u,
hepi bday to acik,
hepi bday to u!

haha. slamat2. ciao!

a day. i called.

spending almost 12 hour with u such a wonderful. it is totally a nice day i have. confess, chit chat, sports, library. huhh. but wait. there will be explosion. b prepared mentally n physically is needed. nah. now im having the totally me back again. feel praised cz its not too late. bad history shall b place at where it should. ehhh. malas sa nak ngerepak eh. kepak. ciao!

marchy event

as i count, so many people was and is having their bday in this month. pheww. sori torg xda duit nak meli hadiah. i can only use my 'talent' to make a card. kakaka. tgk la lak oo. hmm. let me list down.

11 march : bestie nana is 20
12 march : daddy i love u being 45. not yet old huh. hahah.
13 march : gorgy mummy and aunt. tp x ingat brp umo. but u still so-oh mantap!
15 march : murni. u r adult! haha.
17 march : amy kwn lmk. hmm. ney ka nya netok.
21 march : shark n aboy. wei, i havent reach 20. y must im having the telo jugak?
23 march : richard a loveable man. u r dude! haha.
24 march : mus. jenuh arr. kikiki.
27 march : achik the-enemies-but-i-love sis. hey, miss u a lot!
29 march : zizi. sori kakak xpat balit. huhu.

so, i owe myself 11 card (at least la nak). but ya la, lately so bz wif assg, project, activities, dating, idola, frens, presentation, oral, past year, assesment. n yeah, 3 weeks left for final. oh god! hmmm. now i get back my smile and appetite. but i have big bunchy eyebag. and and it feels sooooo gud to give back his smile. as told by bemm. but, in other hand, it might hurt few others. and a bit curious and confuse. the gap is too too close. so yeah. i havent done with my cv, not yet hafal my arab, havent done with law n fin past year, not fully prepared for presentation next week. ergh. lost the pendrive with assg in it. my phone being detained. kakakaka. gik asa aku. luckily there is a back up. still i can texting n make call. aiyaa. cali jak asa. sian la mamak kalo nya kol. sowi towi mowi mommy. ikikiki. hmm. now i learnt. u cant b perfect for anyone. even u've tried soo hard. the harder it is, the more dissappoint u'll b. cz it never satisfy other parties. accepting the way i m is the best. i can fix, but not totally change. wish bob gudluck in his mission. me too! lalalala. bah, nak molah card nya 2 ya lok. lak anta. ciao! erm, here is the pic of last nite. i din take my own photo. neither them i think. we have no flash ya. enjoy! eh2. another thing. m goin to celebrate my bday with my new mate. woot woot! cant wait. haha.





p/s: shark, kesian. telo ko kna skali. kakakakaka. u r spiderman dude!

upside down.

i fucked up my law. arabic? yeah. at least i have confident on it. i didn revise any of them. at all. hell yeah. so many things to think of. daddy's bday today. besh nyaaa. they were out to have dinner. argh. coba la jd balit mlm tek. nak ka pat mkn kek. ahahaha. yes! mamak dah approve for sabah trip. yeaaaaaa!! aih, nya g juak. yeaaaaa! ne tauk pat jumpa. hahah. lotsa plan has been planned out. n 70% of me pretty sure i am not going to take skp. yeah. at least. i can spend time d miri. kch? boh jak. urmm. myb akan dtg juak. but not staying for long. hah. pntei dis weekend. then, tgk dia main futsal. aku men juak. munnnnnn. rindok ati. ekekeke. bob! congratulation, condolence n thanks. x tauk which one shud go first. but really thanks man! sama2 la kita struggle to face the cruel katok. ur words are totally rite. n congrats to acik 4 ur spm. even it doesnt satify me. at least there is 1. compare ngn mine. at least la nak. n hoping to see u at my campus. that is wat i used to dreamt of. hah. i felt sory 4 her bcz put so much trust on him. poor u. if u figure it out sooner, u'll be sooooo sad. nah. let time tells everything. mek malas nak msk cmpo as we didn have any relation. if it is, only me n her jak. ehhh. malas jak sa nak naip ehh. got discussion. chow!

worse came to worse

lotsa question and things keep on taking-tour in my head:

1. m i rational?


2. what the heck r u thinking?


3. hey, wat r u doin currently?


4. urm.. m i so bad? s u tot?


5. can i just stop? i mean stop for the whole include a dug-dag sound of heart beat. i cant bear it for longer.


6. how to have mind, emosional, body and soul peace? anyone?


7. i shud get back to the track. (this is not a question. i know)


8. shud i call mum? (not!)


9. then, to whom i shud tell it?


10. ahhh. i edy called my mum. haha. shes doin fine. lotsa story shared.


11. i miss to talk longer with my sister.


12. dad's bday tomoro. hope i can b in miri. but. dahhhhh...


13. final! yeah. sux. how can i b ready. so many things keep on bothering my everyday life. *&%$#@!


14. yea, u r teling me e truth. i aint sexy, not even hot. haha. thx ya!!


15. money? yes. i think now im totally broke but i keep on consuming. wtf!


16. i din really so into blogging act. but yeah. i love typing. my handwriting hodoh kot.


17. egois? myb. no comment. but i dont think so. myb. ahh. myb.


18. i felt really guilty 4 this dude. im sori dude. myb i'll explain u next time. :


19. dude, i still thinking of my done to u. really soriiiiiiii!!!!


20. ahhh. guilty nvr gone of in a sec.


21. y my life so miserable?


22. i really want to talk wif chums n mien. miss those 2 bestiest.


23. but wait, should b think deep down.


24. i never meant to b harsh-speaker, outspoken o watsoeva. this is only when my emotional overwhelmed.


25. ahhh. u dah return ngn nya 4 kali? gila laa. hahah. shud i say congrats or condolonce? hihi.


26. urm. urm. urm. myb i shudn tell here. its my past. lalalala. rasia2.


27. m i too approaching people till they felt uncomfortable? hey2.


28. felt like waste. hellooooo. im a human being. not rubbish.


29. mamak i miss u!!


30. i gain my weight. tukujut kmk. haha. people r so responsive.


31. i shudn care n stop bothering others life. even i do it bcz i m concern (not for them).


32. got to go to pharmacy n get some pil tdo. i m insomnia.


33. i need peace plsss!!


34. still thinking of taking e skp. shud i? then i'll miss mum triple more.


35. uhhh. cant wait for my bday. hey. it still far away acha.


36. kid, u r really gud in kicking my leg than ball. now i have ur official seal.


37. i want to talk moreeeee. lazy to type.


38. i still cant sleep.


39. when this post will be publish? this is the third time it is save in draft. aiyaa.


40. spotted! sumthing change.


41. y there is a must of existence of hate n hatred?


42. i dont get it when u doing gud, but people treat u bad.


43. i felt like to kick sumone's balls. deymn!


44. i havent done with report writting. shud b submit dis week. ahhh. work hader acha!


45. mamak! i miss u soooo. i'd like to talk to u wat was in my head. its heavy me.


46. suddenly thinking of my crazy cuzzy. aish. mish u guys hell lot.


47. i think this shoud b done. ahh. dat 1 oso. and dat 1. oh, another dat 1. yeah. i think im done.


48. done! done! done!

holga i love u!

im going to die. i love u!

siyes i've been dreaming for this such a long. maaaaaaa! how can i have one?? saba cha saba. lak2 k. tggu ada opportunity u grab it (statement k nyenang ati kedirik). hmm. i'd like and such a pleasure to have it. dah lmk berangan tapppiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. hmm. hmmmm. xpa2. tggu k cha. klak2 ada rejeki bli dikpun. bli smpe 2 3 guni. sak puas ati. cgek model jak bli smpe 3 guni. mun jak la pat jd kaya dakya. yaooooo. nang berangan x abis. shish! god, when can i have the opportunity. boh la brik when i already being a nenek of my grandson lak. da jak knak tetak dak cucuk. kakakaka. rugged sekal jak nenek tek k holga kaleful. ngeng! sok kira duit eh. menabong k meli cgek. haha. dah2. sampai d sini sahaja kaka ku yg merapu. bubui!