worse came to worse

lotsa question and things keep on taking-tour in my head:

1. m i rational?


2. what the heck r u thinking?


3. hey, wat r u doin currently?


4. urm.. m i so bad? s u tot?


5. can i just stop? i mean stop for the whole include a dug-dag sound of heart beat. i cant bear it for longer.


6. how to have mind, emosional, body and soul peace? anyone?


7. i shud get back to the track. (this is not a question. i know)


8. shud i call mum? (not!)


9. then, to whom i shud tell it?


10. ahhh. i edy called my mum. haha. shes doin fine. lotsa story shared.


11. i miss to talk longer with my sister.


12. dad's bday tomoro. hope i can b in miri. but. dahhhhh...


13. final! yeah. sux. how can i b ready. so many things keep on bothering my everyday life. *&%$#@!


14. yea, u r teling me e truth. i aint sexy, not even hot. haha. thx ya!!


15. money? yes. i think now im totally broke but i keep on consuming. wtf!


16. i din really so into blogging act. but yeah. i love typing. my handwriting hodoh kot.


17. egois? myb. no comment. but i dont think so. myb. ahh. myb.


18. i felt really guilty 4 this dude. im sori dude. myb i'll explain u next time. :


19. dude, i still thinking of my done to u. really soriiiiiiii!!!!


20. ahhh. guilty nvr gone of in a sec.


21. y my life so miserable?


22. i really want to talk wif chums n mien. miss those 2 bestiest.


23. but wait, should b think deep down.


24. i never meant to b harsh-speaker, outspoken o watsoeva. this is only when my emotional overwhelmed.


25. ahhh. u dah return ngn nya 4 kali? gila laa. hahah. shud i say congrats or condolonce? hihi.


26. urm. urm. urm. myb i shudn tell here. its my past. lalalala. rasia2.


27. m i too approaching people till they felt uncomfortable? hey2.


28. felt like waste. hellooooo. im a human being. not rubbish.


29. mamak i miss u!!


30. i gain my weight. tukujut kmk. haha. people r so responsive.


31. i shudn care n stop bothering others life. even i do it bcz i m concern (not for them).


32. got to go to pharmacy n get some pil tdo. i m insomnia.


33. i need peace plsss!!


34. still thinking of taking e skp. shud i? then i'll miss mum triple more.


35. uhhh. cant wait for my bday. hey. it still far away acha.


36. kid, u r really gud in kicking my leg than ball. now i have ur official seal.


37. i want to talk moreeeee. lazy to type.


38. i still cant sleep.


39. when this post will be publish? this is the third time it is save in draft. aiyaa.


40. spotted! sumthing change.


41. y there is a must of existence of hate n hatred?


42. i dont get it when u doing gud, but people treat u bad.


43. i felt like to kick sumone's balls. deymn!


44. i havent done with report writting. shud b submit dis week. ahhh. work hader acha!


45. mamak! i miss u soooo. i'd like to talk to u wat was in my head. its heavy me.


46. suddenly thinking of my crazy cuzzy. aish. mish u guys hell lot.


47. i think this shoud b done. ahh. dat 1 oso. and dat 1. oh, another dat 1. yeah. i think im done.


48. done! done! done!